Wish there was something I could say or do,

just do it..

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 23:13:43 GMT

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything; a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, your opinion about me -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends have to say.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 00:29:58 GMT

FRIENDS ONLY.

Comment to be added!

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 00:25:41 GMT

all right (today I learned in english it is never spelled "alright"), so, today was a decent day as Mondays go. After school I went to Knox Goodman's and got the prettiest black homecoming dress ever! I wish I could post a picture because words won't do justice, but its simply amazing. So now I have the problem of what kind of shoes to get, help! My stepmom and grandma suggest black strappy sandals, but I think black shoes might look boring, but then again classy... ahh I don't knooow...
I also got a rl white oxford and a creamish color polo that I really like, oh yeah and amor amor perfume! It smells sooo good!
This past weekend was decent, the dance was fun, I'm sure because I was wasted, along with like 95 percent of the other people there. Also the rave theme with the strobe lights and techno music added to the atmosphere, and I don't think I have sweated that much in my life, but it was okay because everyone else was sweaty and gross too. Saturday went to Grant's and hung out with a few cool people, wasn't as good as the past couple of weekends because I couldn't drink because we had to go back to Courtney's house where her relatives were staying, although I almost beat Jared at a round of beer pong! It was that stupid fan that made me lose, dumbass.
No homework tonight, and tomorrow we take the plan test, which means no morning classes, yes! Oh yeah, this will be my last public journal entry, so comment to be added.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 03:56:52 GMT

My teeth hurt, I went to the ortho this morning. This weekend was really fun and then not so fun... Rosses would have been fun if I wasn't in such a bad mood and I just wasn't looking forward to seeing a certain person, but I got that over with and I feel a lot better now. I'm just tired of being in a relationship, and tired of guys in general for that matter... seriously, 6 months is a really long time, and it coudn't have worked out with him gone anyway. I don't know why I'm not upset whatsoever, but I guess thats a good thing. I hope I wasn't too mean, but I just had to be honest with him.
So today I tried on a few homecoming dresses after school, and they all looked like shit on me. So after being discouraged by that, I went to target and bought a bunch of diet foods for the diet that will start tomorrow, even though I say that like everyday haha, but maybe this dress sitation will motivate me. Actually, I don't even know if I'm going to go to homecoming.. I don't know that I will have a date, I just can't think of anyone who would ask me. It's still a while away I know, but still..I guess we'll see..
I need to read some Oedipus or some shit, later

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 02:50:44 GMT

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!

My plans for this three day weekend-
get wasted

This week has been so long, and now I am soo excited. One more day!

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 04:45:11 GMT

I cannot stop listening to Ben Harper. I don't even want to listen to him anymore because I've been listening to him for like weeks straight, but whenever I play another song it like repulses me. I think I'm addicted.

By the way, a certain boy is a dick, I don't know what to do.

UGH.

I think I just have some like anger that needs to be released because I haven't gotten mad in a really long time, hmm.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 02:32:45 GMT

The vmas are boring me so I decided to update. What the hell is mtv's problem? They think a big suprise for the night is having some fat girls dance around P Diddy, who is not the ideal host, considering hes not funny and hes obsessed with himself which can be a tad aggrevating.

Anyways, this weekend was alright.

I finally jumped on the bandwagon and got a myspace, although I don't have a picture which kind of blows and I don't see how anyone could keep more than one journal going, when I can't even seem to reguarly update this shit.

I need a marlboro red right now. And no, that does not make me a man.

homecoming diet starts tomorrrow!! and this time I swear I'm sticking to it. I need some positive encouragement, help me pleaseee! losing weight is essential.

payce!

oh yeah, and I need a cool new icon, whoever supplies me with one will win a special suprise! haha don't ask what.. laterrrr

new computer bitches

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:25:12 GMT

ok so after quite a long suffering without internet, i am FINALLY back! yeah some thunderstorm like blew up my computer or something so it sucked, but now we got a new dell dude. yeah so thank the lord about that.
School has started and this year is definately starting off slow... this week of school felt like a month of school. I don't know whats wrong with me, I've just been in a pissy mood ever since school started. I guess I'm just waiting for some excitement to start. This year better be fun.
Liscense in 1 month and 28 days and i CANNOT wait.

So last night sucked. Some guys are dicks.

Today I will probably (a) clean my room, (b) go work out, (c) sleep, and (d) be on this computer all night. Woah, I don't know if I can handle this extreme activity all in one day.

Hopefully someone out there still reads this

kids in Texas smoking grass, ten year sentence comes to pass

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 06:50:05 GMT

hello hello, I know its been a while, and yeah its a little late, but I'm not tired at all for some reason. I'm supposed to be packing because I am leaving for galveston tomorrow for a week, but oh well, I'll just wake up early and do so. Me, Catherine, and Courtney (girls from camp) are going to stay with Jacklene (also from camp). It should be fun, I just don't want to leave people here, especially Charles. He came over tonight, its been so long since i've seen him it feels like, but I think we are really good, and we are going to stay together while he goes to boarding school.
I love him...
yeah i'm a loser.

I think I had way too high of expectations for this summer. I mean it hasn't all been bad, don't get me wrong, but it hasn't exactly been the exciting, best-time-of-your-life summer I was looking for. I think it will be a lot better next year and the years to come when I can drive, but we'll see I guess. its sad, but I think I'm sort of ready for school to start, I have a feeling there is going to be a lot of drama this year. woot.

so, I'll update next Saturday when I'm home. love youuuuu!

you're just jealous cus we're young and in love

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:47:38 GMT

ok so, me and courtney are home! We got up at the asscrack of dawn this morning and went to the eagle airport and flew to dallas, where we switched planes all by ourselves! haha yeah we are hardxcore.. and then the plane ride home was scary bc we were in a shitty little plane and it was stormy and lots of turbulance, but we had a gay flight attendant reading cosmo so he got us through it. But we are safely back at my home and court is staying with us till sunday when her parents return.
I'm not sure what we are going to do tonight, or the rest of the week for that matter, other than painting my room and getting new carpet installed haha. hopefully summer will get a little more exciting, and soon! school starts in like exactly a month.. wow.
alright, later!

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i got some sevens!! woohoo yeah I am excited if you can't tell..

woahwoahwoah

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 00:38:33 GMT

heeeey im in vail colorado right about now with courtney. It is sooo gorgeous here, and we are staying in like one of the top resorts in the world. it is sweet. Its kind of cold here too, which is nice. we flew in yesterday and we are staying until wednesday when we will fly back by ourselves, which will be interesting. this keyboard sucks really bad and is hard to type on so im going to keep it short. i know everyone is having a hell of a time in shreveport.... right? haha yeah i bet.

much love

theres just no way to say how much I love you..

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 20:05:10 GMT

yeah so, summer since I've been home has been pretty boring. Not much partying, other than me and courtney being alcoholics at my house like everyday. I haven't had much to do.. my parents went out of town yesterday, and I'm going to be here/my sister's house (next door) by myself until Saturday, when I leave for Colorado with court. That should be exciting, as I have never been to Colorado. I'm supposed to like totally clean out my room before I leave, so we can remodel it when I get back. I guess I should start that soon... oh well. I've been up at the Little Theatre all day getting ready for the show tonight, and I'm going to go back in a couple of hours to set everything up. Its actually a lot more fun than it sounds.
Schools going to start soon... I haven't read any of the books. GOOD.
I need some excitement.

guess whos back

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 01:27:03 GMT

yeah, so I'm back from camp! I actually have been since Saturday, I just didn't remember to update this. Camp was good, a lot happened that if I tried to tell you about you wouldn't understand and you would think i was insane haha so yeah.. I haven't really done much since I've been back, just hanging out mostly. I haven't drank or smoked or anything.. which I don't know if thats good or bad. But right now courtneys over and we are watching an o.c. rerun and I think tonight we will find something fun to do. Oh yeah, yesterday was really cool by the way....

summer is insane.

farewell for 28 days....

Sat, 28 May 2005 19:59:16 GMT

yes, tomorrow I am leaving Shreveport for a month. (28 days, 4 weeks...) yes that is a very long time, and I'm not too excited. Even though I've been going to this camp for 5 years now, for some reason this summer is different, I'm not excited like I usually am, I'm actually dreading it. Hopefully when I get there that will change. It just sucks everyone here will be partying and having a lot of fun while I'm gone, yall just bettter not forget me bitches! I'm taking my cell phone with me though, and you can't call me bc im not supposed to have it, but if you're cool I might just call you after 9 pm haha. Buuuut I would seriously love you for life if you write to me!
Allison Fish
Camp Fern
1046 Camp Road
Marshall, TX 75672

i loooooooooooooove you all, and have a great june!

Sat, 21 May 2005 21:43:43 GMT

alright im getting ready to go to cassies party with court alex and cat! im very excited! yeah but i feel realy bad bc i told charles i would help him with his powerpoint tonight, and now im going to this... but i can help him tomorrow, i just hope i didnt make him mad. i got his birthday present today! its some cute red abercrombie athletic shorts, i hope he likes them and they fit.
by the way, i havent studied for finals AT ALL. oh well, i can always cram the night before.. i guess..

happy birthday to grace! shes the big 1-5 today woooo

Fri, 20 May 2005 03:37:07 GMT

omg im like crying
ben harper is amazing
my dad found all his old cds and gave them to me,
and you know when you hear a song that puts you in shock and you just cry because its soo good, not because its sad?
yeah maybe im weird but wow. this is love.

"People spend so much time
Every single day
Runnin' 'round all over town
Givin' their forever away
But no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you"

another quite amazing song by ben-

"We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found. "

i will go be a pussy and cry some more now

YAY

Fri, 20 May 2005 02:11:36 GMT

YAYS:
-BRACES CAME OFF TODAY! yeah thats right allison is a woman now!
-the part of school I was at was good, i aced a spanish test and did decently on a combest essay test
-helped my dad at the office and got to drive some
-had good dinner at monjunis with some family, my first dinner without braces in like centuries!
-tomorrow is friday!
- ONE WEEK OF SCHOOL

NAYS:
-I DIDN'T GET TO SEE THE FUCKING FINALE OF THE OC. i was at dinner and thought i set my vcr to record it but obviously I'm not too good with electrical appliances. I was really destrought until elainea came to my rescue and is bringing me the tape tomorrow.. i love you doll!
-charles checked out sick and feels really bad and didn't get to see me without my braces yet.. i hope hes better by the weekend
- have to study oodles this weekend
-have a couple tests tomorrow
-I leave for camp in 9 days...

I've been looking online at clothes like constantly lately and I have a long list of things I want to purchase this summer. CANNOT wait till summer, even though charles told me something that could be disasterous, but I dont want to think about it right now and ruin my good mood so I will post that some other time.
much love! <3

Tue, 17 May 2005 23:47:46 GMT

1. Reply with your name, and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.

Tue, 17 May 2005 01:25:30 GMT

so today was a long ass monday. Not a bad one, just long. This whole week is going to go by soo slow... ugh.
But here is a countdown for everyone who is intrested-
3 days until the braces come off (WOO!)
8 days of school
12 days until I leave for camp.. for a month..

alright and I'm stressing about finals and sort of stressing about Charles staying in magnet, its very likely he will be at Shreve next year. I would still want to stay with him, but I think that relationship would be really tough, not being able to see each other very often. And I'm sort of afraid to get really close to him this summer and then us have to break up.. anyone know what I'm saying? yeah I'm trying not to think about this now, I should just take the advice and "cross the bridge when I get to it", but I'm prone to having alot of anxiety.
Anyways, I should shower now and get into bed. I want to sleep for a few days... ahh ok byeeeeee

yay for new shoes!

Sat, 14 May 2005 04:46:05 GMT

Ok for some reason I'm not tired at all right now, it seems when I have nothing to do I'm never tired enough to go to sleep, but when I'm doing something I'm tired... ok nevermind.
Anyways-after school today I went to target and got a few braizeres (sp?) for camp and then went to sportspectrum and they had the most AMAZING sale going on. I got a pair of Flordia Birkenstock sandles for 35 $ (usually like 90) and a pair of blue suede pumas for 40 $ (usually like 100) I was MUCHOS happy. (in spanish the adjective is actually supposed to go behind the word but oh well) I also got some diadoras for camp, but they weren't on sale. and they gave me a free race t shirt from like 2003! so vintage. hahah yeah not.
So tomororw I get my hurr did at 2 15 and I'm not sure what I'm doing tomorrow night... Charles needs to hang out with his guy friends for once I think, he hasn't in a long time and they feel he is violating the "bros before hoes" law. I don't know I guess we will see.. if anyone knows of anything cool going on then give me a holla.
I think I will clean my room now or something because I'm bored and have some energy.

summer goals

Wed, 11 May 2005 01:36:46 GMT

ok after just eating an enourmous amount of chocolate and feeling really guilty about it, I decided I should write out my summer goals and maybe I would stick to them better.
first and most important-
-lose weight
-work out at least 3-4 times a week
-get tan
- save money for nice starting school clothing
(on the list right now are a pair of seven jeans and a lime
green ralph lauren polo and an fcuk shirt)
- play tennis and golf as often as possible
- become comfortable with my body
- party hard!
- spend alot of time with friends and charles hopefully

I go to camp the sunday after we get out of school until the end of June, yeah thats a MONTH. A month of my summer gone, which is pretty much half of my summer. I've been going for 5 years now, but this is the first year I've started to have doubts about going. I guess that just comes with growing older. But yall better not forget me while I am gone. I'm taking my cellphone even though you aren't supposed to, but later I will post the adress and i expect some damn letters.

Time to study for a science test and do other hw I have totally put off until now. laterrr

testing one two

Tue, 10 May 2005 00:17:15 GMT

ok, so I'm testing this out because I want to come back to lj but I doubt anyone still reads this so it might be pointless.. so yes, if you read, please comment.

I just ate some sunchips and they were good.

See, if you read my journal you are sure to get more random intresting facts like this.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 01:09:20 GMT

YUP so i havent updated in quite a while but im not going to explain mardi gras and everything else that happened during my lj absence b/c you probably all already know about it. soo i'll start with highlights from today-

haha ok so we were supposed to go to a shakespere seminar during 3rd hour but it got cancelled so i went back to gym and didnt have to dress out so i talked to some peeeps. then at lunch it was really sad/funny when grant knocked rob's water over onto his lap and it loooked like he wet himself. hahah aww ok moving on- then me and grant got in trouble for talking in spanish and so now the whole class has a pop quiz tomorrow.. ooops! and yea in combeast's class we are watching this hillarious spoof of romeo and juliet and its neat. me and court decided it reminded us of requiem for a dream for some odd reason.. yeaaa.
then i went and hit golf balls after school and went to dominic's and now i feel like im going to vomit. gross. but the good news is .. tomorrow is friday! except the bad news is.. i have lacrosse tomorrow and i have to bring my stupid jersey so i can scrimage varsity run about 54 laps and lose like a bitch. FUN.
good news is though.. me and court get bunches of supplies for this weekend SCHORE! i think caro might come with us to the parade and i know golda is fo sho i think. PARTAY time! and highland parade is this weekend and they changed the route so it like comes down my street haha woohoo! everyone should attend its a blast.
THE OC IS ON SO IM GONNA WATCH AND YOU SHOULD TOO FOR SOME LESBIAN ACTION! PAYCE

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 01:06:09 GMT

so im home from lacrosse and i ate a big bowl of yummy chili and now im about ready for some sleep, but i still got a bit of homework to do. All in all, this was a good monday.. as good as mondays can get. oh yea, report cards.. all a's! i thought i was gonna have two b's but i was lucky.
haha and today i tried to argue with nick shelton on every comment he made, and i suceeded a couple times, both dealing with grace. heres an example-
nick: "grace probably didn't come to school because she didn't study for the test"
me: "UMM FOR YOUR INFORMATION SHE STAYED UP LATE LAST NIGHT STUDYING AND THE REASON SHE ISNT HERE TODAY IS BECAUSE SHE DIDNT FEEL WELL SO STOP ASSUMING THINGS"
haha i dont even know if grace studied or not, or if shes sick or not, but i just like disagreeing with him.

GUESS WHAT!@$ tomorrow is my first golf lesson!!! im soooo excited!
haha yea im a dork. but a golfing dork, so that makes me a little bit cooler.

ok so the first lacrosse game is Feb. 9 i expect all of you reading this to be there to support your favorite person ever (yea if you didnt get that, thats me!)

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 22:12:48 GMT

alright i just got back from the non mandatory lacrosse practice. There was only like 12 people there and we played jv against varsity, and all freshman are on jv, but for some reason today he played me on varsity and he took my place of jv. I did really good though! but i accidently did an illegal check on my coach's head and i made him bleed... :/ but it was all good he wasnt mad. i feel good now that i got my physical activity for the day.
So.. last night..ahaha wow more crazy events happened last night then have happened to me in a real long time, but it was fun. I hope whoever knows about that doesnt think im like bad now or something, because its not really a big deal. But yea court we are gonna have to do that again.. maybe think up a little safer plan this time.. haha
SHIT I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

oh yea everyone should go buy the crazytown cd or the papa roach cd or some rap cds that have beauty and the beast randomly inserted, ok?